pen on paper(1992) A4well its post submission and post crit and i guess everyone is getting on with their "normal" activities again. and so i woke up at 6am in the morning because my brain still thinks that i have a model to work on but unfortunately i dun. whahaha
so i was out on facebook which eventually led to my blog and a few others.
went on Jon and thomas's one and its the entry on crit which really caught my attention.
About how u prepare, the anticipation and hopefully the emancipation of it. i too have a few thoughts. how do u actually prepare for a crit. the old trick of imagining that they are all naked infront of u does not really work on me anymore. in fact i feel more naked.
but what i knw is Crits are like ..... i dunno passing judgements too fast ? like come on .... u will need more than 5 mins presentation for pple to understand the full complexities of a plan, a thought, an intention and five more to understand the lack of it. whahahahaha at least thats how i feel.
my crit this yr was okie. u knw... no good comment. it was like nothing good and bad was being said. it left me hanging... i was wondering if i had done a good job. i did not put much effort really. in fact it was once of the easiest projects that i have handled. maybe i got it right from the start. in fact Ya Ou commented on my lack of process. well true... i only amended my plan 3 times?
i did my 3d model once only ( no Formal developmet)? and i only attended less than half of the studio sessions (andrew reminded me at macs hahahahah)
then came the crit and questions asked. i had a spot on. 2 questions FJC had asked.which i had pondered over them for 3 weeeks. i answered but i think he did not really understand, so much so that i sounded aloof and what paul would describe as designer's attitude.whahahaha... widodo... was just too quiet ... DB just smiled and andrew looked at me in shock( u said the wrong stuff) ahahahahahahaah not very funny. in fact i just wanted to get thru it. dun ask anymore see and feel the project.
and then i asked myself if it wld have been better if the model was there... but then andrew said it did not really matter at all. so did it mean that the model would not have saved me or otherwise.i felt shortchanged by myself this semester. i think if i would to Kanna a RIBA, maybe it would give me another chance to present the project again.. maybe with a model.
and then i asked myself as a sort of debrief. am i improving or stagnant? i went thru all the works that i have done over the yrs all the way down till the sketches i did when i was 9 or 10 and dreaming of Architecture Sch. it felt okie.at least i have put myself in an architectural school and well maybe i wun get hits all the time, but what matters is that i have not not given up. and then the feeling of motivation came again. so for the first time in public i will be releasing ... my childhood sketches.!!!!
Keeping the DREAM alive for myself and friends! Feel GOOD
pen and pencil on paper (1993) A4
my lastest "baby" as how andrew would call it... hahaha sadly i am unable to produce the model
